To Do or Not To Do?

Hello cookers from the depths of finals week.

I don’t mean to flaunt-

funny word. 

It's a word alright. 

If you know me, you know grammar and spelling are my arch nemesis.

Anyways, I don’t mean to flaunt but two of my finals are online next week. Both on Friday. I’ve actually been studying quite a bit because I want to know the information, but hey, open note is open note!

My other two finals were papers and a dance. Not too bad.

I had a dream last night.

 I was taking my final for my math class that I am taking next quarter on a boat with comfy office chairs, the water kept splashing on my test. I’m really not looking forward to this math class. 

1:33

8th floor of Geisel Library. 

The holy grail of UCSD

What I believe to be the reason most people think we are UC Socially Dead (I wrote a whole paper about this for my COMM’s class, I'll link it here: Group Project_COMM 10_ Fall 23_ Brand UCSD (A18) in case anyone is interested in giving it a skim)

I love the 8th floor. It’s silent. And I mean SILENT.

But I just like Geisel Library in general.

I did some studying, read over my papers, kept reloading Canvas to see what I got on the film quiz for this week, kept getting disappointed as no answers have been graded yet, scrolled on Instagram for five minutes, got bored, checked Canvas again. And now I am here, writing to the abyss.

The girl next to me is doing some data science work. I cannot express my gratitude enough for not being a stem major (no offense stem Gods, you guys are great. Keep stemming)

As I walked to the Library from my last DOC 1 lecture (THANK GOD. 1/3 done), I took a moment to people watch.

A campus tour was going on, the girl leading it had bangs, I’m thinking of getting bangs again…Is this a bad idea?

A guy complained that his dad is a liar.

Eesh. 

Someone wizzes by me on a scooter. Have I mentioned my annoyance with those things? I think people need to walk more. See, you don’t see people in New York constantly wizz by on scooters! (Can you tell I miss New York?) They are large and I have seen too many people fall. Bikes don't bother me, but the scooters do. I think it’s because I know if I went on one, I would most definitely fall and crash, so maybe it’s just my insecurity rubbing off into hatred. 

I’m sad today.

It’s my last class of HILD 10. 

What a fun, great, awesome class. 

It’s ok.

There will be more fun, great, awesome classes in the future. 

I’m looking forward to my apple and peanut butter snack later in the afternoon. I bought a good apple for it. A bad apple is the worst.

Criteria of a bad apple: grainy, too sour, small, waxy.

Criteria of a Good apple: crunchy, crisp, balance of sweet and sour, satisfying, big.

Should I get a matcha! Perhaps a coffee? Probably not. 

But maybe I will though.

Why do humans do that?

Go against exactly what we know we shouldn’t do just to prove ourselves that we can?

It’s getting a little stuffy on this floor of Geisel. I think I’ll head back to my dorm. 

I have a nasty cough. Not sick. Just a cough. You know the one, the one that all college kids have, the one you hear circulating through your dorm, dining hall, and lectures. Yea, that one. 

I need to do laundry before the train ride back.

I need to pack.

I should probably study more

But on what? I feel I have a good grasp, but I’m also worried that I understand nothing at all. I guess I won’t really know t’il I’m faced with the questions. I feel like VAPA should have given us actual finals, they did a bad job with that. Made it too easy. Finals suck but it's college. Unfortunately. 

Then you're out in four years and they really don't matter that much.

Maybe I will get a coffee. 

Or a matcha. 

It seems my night will be long. 

I see the Mormon temple from my view.

Nice. 

I'm not Mormon.

I don't plan on becoming Mormon.

But I like to think about it.

As I do with other things.

Religion is to reason as why is to because as I don't know is to unexplainable questions in science. 

The Gods that linger from the pages of American shadows  wrestle in my dreams.

I do believe in Gods.

I do believe in science.

I believe in everything and nothing.

I think we should start focusing on these supernatural things more. 

Isn’t it crazy that we are all born? That we exist right now? What are the odds? Truly think about it, the fact that the DNA made this. YOU. Me, her him she they yadadadada. Didn't make us a fish.

So think about that.

You're human. 

You can walk talk and think 

You can dance prance and…. What’s a word that rhymes with those? WEAR PANTS!

You can laugh cry and see the sun

I think we need to have some gratitude for these things a bit more. 

At least we’re here. 

laku noć

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Cat